Am a troblesome .

Hye guys, assalamualaikum

its actually almost 3. and i still wake up. its been a hard week for me. maybe Allah is testing me in this Ramadhan. oh ya! almost forget! Happy Ramadhan i hope that u can gain more and more in this honorably month. 

so, is not that i wanna tell anything. its just things that i cannot say to ma friends. i donno what to do or who to talk with. for the past few days am so sick. i got flu and i also cant breath. i even through out. its was a difficult time and it was a fasting day for me. but i think Allah still love me even i have a lot of sin. so after that day HE give me a break from a fasting. u know women !! Hee. thank to ma friend that be with me. 

and that weeks ma dad also have some financial problem. i think until this day. i hope that Allah help me. so i dont wanna bother ma dad so much about money. sometime i feel sad about why i dont just born in rich family that dont have this kind of issue. but then i realize this is not something that we can argue. we should pray to Allah. i hope ma dad be strong, he must be worried more than i do.

today also is ma lil bro birthday. so Happy Birthday MOMOK!!!! u turn 15. i hope that u manage well and is really hard time for teenager. ive been there. o hope that u take care of urself well. i heard lots of bad things about u. please dont make mama sad. she's far away. u should know. i love u a lot. i never say it to ur face but i really do. so i hope that u can go through this stage of life. 

i just finish a task actually. now i need to continue to do another one. ma laptop is dumb. need money! i just donno how i can face a life anymore. its hard. i almost finish ma study. next sem is gonna be a practical time. i still dont know where to apply. right now i think i spend so much time alone. just stay in ma room and think about what should i do. i hope Allah is with me. i try to be strong of what happen. 

its new sem started, money again ! am sorry dad am such a bad bad daughter. and am sorry B, i know i give u a hard time. i know that u worried about me. its actually funny that u text ma friend to take care of me when i sick. and thank to u. i cant never pay anything that u give me, its just i got a lot of to think about then i treat u like that. i need someone to blame. and the easy way its blame it on u. i know that u the one who understand me even i can say this problem to u. when i surround by all the people ma heart feel empty. 

BE STRONG April !

may Allah bless u all.
Xoxo April Reika