Sometime life hard

Assalamualaikum semua..

minggu nie banyak betuk dugaan lah, kadang-kadang hati rasa betul ke semua nie? ntah lah mungkin da takdir hidup aku camni kan? ramai lagi yang yang lebih terok. hurm tadi rasa nak nangis, so aku nangis sepuas2 nya lepas tu tertido. bangun-bangun je rasa nak demam. haish harap-harap tak terok.

word of the dayialah terok. hehe. yelah result terok, relationship terok, holidays suck!

semalam result for the last sem keluar and i didnt think that it was that bad! i am really shock like mata ta berkelip and rasa kejung gila tengok result camtu. imagie lah subject 5 je, sikit dari previous sem tapi boleh result paling rendah. ntah lah, maybe mase hari tu banyak masalah family, dengan financial prob nya, so camni lah result dapat. and my brother pon dah dapat dia punya result pmr. as expected lah, mana ada A kalau asyik tak masuk kelas sebab rugbi. cikgu pon alahaiii. tapi takpa lah.

holiday pon sama, datang kl, skunk kat perak. macam takda benda yang berfaedah yang boleh aku buat. 

kadang-kadang kita terpaksa lepaskan orang yang dah lepaskan tangan kita kan? macam mana susah sekalipon.walau hati berat sangat sebab kita dah biasa ada dia, dah lama dengan dia and dah tahu cara dia. tapi sebab benda2 tu semua jugak lah kita terpaksa lepaskan dia kan? hope that my heart is strong so i can endure this very well. i really hope that i can. 

ouh btw, i dnegan my sister akan try start a business. hope ada supporters and business akan teros maju jaya. Hee . in sha Allah! pray for us guys. 

Xoxo

April 

MNS review.

Assalamualaikum sayangs..

well dah dua bulan lebih dah i pakai MNS kan, so today i nak buat review and nak rate star kat this product lah. so pertamanya product nie bagus lah, hilangkan jerawat dan parut..bila pakai dah tak payah pakai apa2 foundation or bedak lagi. 1st pakai memang peeling lah, sebab kulit muka i mang warna tak serata now dah serata dan lebih cerah from before, lebih glowing even baru bangun tido pon kulit nampak cantik. p masalah nya this product dont have any KKm certificate so i really cam little bit doubt lah, use to ask their owner dekat FB, what their ingredient..tapi diorang tanak expose dengan alasan this product is still in the lab and then baru boleh ke kkm. so i wonder for 3 years now, because they started to produced this on 2011 tak kan lama sangat baru boleh ke kkm.

so i started to do some research, search internet pasal chemical in the product. about hydroquin, mercury and so on. yang sangat merbahaya for skin maybe boleh jadi cancer ke who knows kan? i pon pernah tanya jugak their owner pasal is there any chemical yang merbahaya tak..the owner say that most of the customer is really satisfied and in sha Allah tak ada memudaratkan..so is not really answering my question actually. so, after 2 months and a half now guna memang banyak positif but kadang2 rasa muka tegang sangat after wash the face.

so bila muka dah ok i think i need to change the product. yelah takut jugak kalau muka jadi nipis ke ape kan. so i decide nak change to other product. so lately i ada buat survey pasal this product which is Fantabulous Skincare. and thankfully ada KKM. good right! so maybe after dah habis boleh try out pasal FB skincare beside harge pon lebih murh compared to MNS.

so mesti korang nak tengok muka i kannn..cewahhh perasann iolss. so i bg 7 star kat MNS out of ten, i rase i satisfied sampai tahap 7 jew! hahaha.

so here we go..

nie muka memang ta edit lha, pakai eyeliner n liptint jew cikit.

of course kena tunjok before kan..hehe, nie gambar dulu yew..

nie gmbar lame dah, tak terok mana cuma wajah kusam n gelap cikit laa.. hehe

so ok lha guys. be good to u!

XOXo sygsss

Oh DUnia sekarang.

Assalamualaikum sayangs...

sebenarnya takda lah nak cerita apa sangat tapi tadi masa aku gi TISKU ade cerita aku nak share dengan korang semua. tak tahulah anak dia or sedara mara dia yang buat atau hantar dia kat situ tapi aku rasa kesian sangat. patut umur2 macam tu dia dijaga penuh kasih sayang bukan tolong cari duit untuk orang lain. dengan lumpuh nya ya Allah sedihnya.

last week masa aku gi ke tesco pon ade jugak. dari pagi smpai malam nenek yang berkerusi roda ada kat pintu masuk tesco. tak boleh cakap, kesian sangat. adalah mase aku tengok tu dua tiga orang bagi duet. tadi masa pergi ada budak pulak 2 orang lelaki perempuan umur dalam 4,5 tahun kot tadah tangan mintak2 duet dengan orang lalu lalang. ya Allah ape bodoh sangat mak bapak diorang buat macam tu. 

aku benci sangat orang yang macam nie. patut dia yang jaga mak dia yang tengah sakit. nie tak dia guna untuk kepentingan diri dia sendiri. dah lah dari pagi smpai malam kot. dah makan minum orang tua tu camne? mana tanggungjawab korang. ya Allah sedih lah aku. mulut terjuih. moga dilaknat lah anak2 dia wat camtu kat mak diorang. patut diorang jaga mak yang tengah sakit bukan wat camtu. kalau tanak jaga bawak g rumah orang tua2. ta patut betollah.

lepas tuh dah nampak banyak orang bagi derma kat mak ko, ko suruh pulak anak2 ko 2 orang mintak sedekah. bila waktu2 macam tu diorang patut belajar, mak bapak jenis apa wat anak pemintak sedekah, ya tuhan dunia nak akhir zaman betul ke ni. 

lagi satu kat tesco jugak dekat atm, sedih aku budak lelaki umur 5,6 tahun macam tuh datang mintak duit 2 ringgit dngan tiap orang kat situ, ya Allah apa nak jadi dengan mak bapak korang buat anak2 cam tu. entah lah aku tak tahu nak cakap. sedih lah dunia sekarang sanggup buat mak ayah yang dah tak mampu nak bercakap pon cari duit tuk anak2 yang perangai cam setan. kenapalah korang tak mampus awal2. bertaubat lah wei, ko sakitkan hati mak ko da susah masuk syurga camna ko boleh fikir suruh mak ko buat kerja macam tu. 

aku harap2 anak2 dia sedar, kalaupun dulu mak ko ada buat salah dengan ko tak patut ko aniaya dia bila dia dah tua dan lumpuh camtu. ni kisah diperguna, kisah yang memperguna macam mana?

aku ingat dulu masa g wakaf che yeh, aku cam sangat muka pemintak sedekah nie sebab tiap2 hari kat bazar ramadhan dia ada mintak sedekah kat situ. boleh lepas dia duduk mintak sedekah dalam pukul 1 lebih masa aku nak balik dah dia g beli2 baju, terkejut aku. dala cara pakaian tak macam pemintak sedekah, dengan liptiks merahnya, sekarang pemintak sedekat lebih kaya dari orang yang kerja office. yelah kalau seringgit sorang 100 orang sehari dah seratus ringgit, kalau sebulan? kiralah sendiri, aku bukan tanak or benci tapi kalau masih berkemampuan bekerja jangan lah mintak sedekah, kesian kat yang memang memerlukan yang cacat, yang ta mampu nak beli ubat..hurm

tulis2 teringat pulak aku masa aku balik cuti hujung minggu dekat rumah aku sendiri, aku ingat mocik jual barang ke apa datang rumah rupanya mami aku cakap orang mintak sedekah, kali kedua dah datang rumah aku ni, mami aku cakap minggu lepas dah datang, miggu ni datang lagi, mocik nie pakai memang hot la baju kurung lengkap dengan tudung sarung warna sama dengan handbag kecik. perh mang tak nampak miskin lahh tapi datang mintak sedekah??? what!! dah lah takde cacat cela.. memang terbaik lah orang sekarang cari duit. tak rasa malu langsung. 

dunia2 lebih banyak yang fakir ilmu daripada fakir duit. aku pon tak tahu lah apa yang diorang fikir. jenis yang tahu ambik kesempatan atas orang lain. 

harap2 kita dijauhkan jadi macam nie.

xoxo sayangs

untuk Awak!

Assalamualaikum sayangs..

semoga hari awak2 sume bahagia dan baik, kalau susah hati sabarlah tu pasti Allah nak uji kita hambanya.

hari saya?dengan kawan2 ok jew, cuma mungkin saya tak ditakdirkan untuk bahagia dengan cinta.

nak buat macam mana kan?

tak boleh tunding jari kat dia, saya yang banyak kekurangan dan dia boleh pilih siapa yang dia suke.

saya tak cantik cantik, mata rabak pon sebab genetik family dah nak buat macam mana. selalu dia cakap dia tak suka mata saya sebab lebam. orang kata dari mata turun ke hati. nampak nya kena carik pepatah lain lah untuk cerita saya. kulit tak putih "MEE LEPAK" pon genetik jugak sebab abah kulit gelap. 

mungkin saya dah matang jadi saya tak mengamuk2 atau melalak macam dulu. *ouh bru sedar dulu bodo giler.

saya sedih, air mata saya keluar mengalir kat pipi je bila jadi macam tu. mungkin saya dah penat asik kejar orang yang salah jadi hati saya rasa sangat sakit. mugkin saya patut berenti. 

kadang2 saya selalu fikir, cukup lah ! tapi saya tak kuat hidup tanpa dengar suara dia. mungkin ni lah masanya saya pandang kehadapan dan fikir pasal diri saya. siapa tak sayang hubungan selama ni, 4 tahun dah! lamanya saya pertahankan walau banyak nya dugaan. mungkin sekarang saya patut give up. 

selama saya sedar saya banyak kekurangan dalam hubungan kami, saya cuba terbaik tapi saya tak mampu kalau akhirnya saya yang perlu mengingatkan dia tiap hari tentang diri saya. jadi saya berenti !

kalau yang terbaik adalah melepaskan awak pergi... mungkin saya perlu!

bila suara dah jarang didengar msj dah jarang dihantar,

gambar saja jadi tatapan jiwa,

hati pon berkecai tapi senyuman sembunyikan luka.

kepada awak cinta hati saya, saya akan selalu ingat awak sebab awak cinta hati saya. yang akan selalu di hati walau apapon yang terjadi. mungkin bila awak dah ada penggati saya, yang lebik layak berdiri bersama, saya tumpang bahagia.

baru sampai tadi, April Reika Soul.
casing phone nie buat 2 minggu lepas. mungkin saya bole tengok awak kat sini jew lepas nie. sebab awak salah satu soul saya. ^_^

hidup kena move on kan. 

p/s: hujan macam tau2 jew hati saya tengah sedih :p

xoxo sayangs

Farewell Friends

Assalamualaikum sayangg..

last Sunday i ade farewell dinner for senior of kptmkb. so finally da na habis dah

sedih rase p excited in the same time. yelah da last sem. next sem da practikal.

sekejap jew mase berlalu. tak sedar pown. cam tulah manusia kan bila da penghujung baru lah rase.

banyak nye pahit manis sepanjang berada kat kptm kb nie, dengan kawan2 dengan lec. struggle so much past 2 and half years nie. yang seronok ada yang sedih and geram pown ada. macam2 adalahh. Hehe 

now just prepare for the last final of this course. harap boleh buat yang terbaik lah.

harap2 semua kawan2 pown boleh buat and do the best in your paper this final. kadang2 rase sedih sebab ade benda yang menghalang daripada bertegur sapa ngan kawan2 p tapew lah. harap kowunk bahagia di dunia mahupun akhirat. in sha Allah. 

pada lectures yang byk membantu, yang selalu kena sakat cik Wan thank sudi ajar kteowng yg kepale batu nie, asek na merungut and bergado pasal markah la pasal cik Wan la, and slalu wat klas kteowng ceria. yg ajar saya finance and investment. smpai saya pandai sebb sy slow cket bub2 no nie. 2 sem da aja sy.

pada Ayahanda sy merangkap lec jugk Sir Luq. thnk even kadang2 mood aynhda ta menentu p thx sebb slalu jwb kalau sy tanye, sy nye suke bertanye sokmo. hehe harap2 lepas nie rendu2 la sy. anak mentee anda. ngee. da 3 sem da aja sy kan. cepat jew mse berlalu.

thx sume lec yg ajar dari sem 1 sampai sem 5 nie. jasa anda memang ta terbalas.

pada kawan2 nunu merangkap bff aq, roomate aq, classmate aq, and groupmate aq, aq sayang mu ketat2 even kadang mu annoying cket..ta ksah la sebb aq pown annoying byk jgk kew mu kan? pasni mesty ta slalu jumpe. kawan2 lain yg slalu ade yg slalu jd bahan gurauan. yg slalu dtg tye aq pasal semua mnde, pasal stdy.. mimi yg setia jd ank murid aq dr sem 2, kak sara mtk maaf lao ade tersalah ajar,memey pown cekgu sara tadop dh pasni. aq suke ajar geng2 mu, wlaopown aq garang cket. hehe

pada aina n the geng. tadop geng mu tadop la owg aq na gurao senda. hehe. byk yg kte lalui bersama2kan?

dan terakhir skali terima kasih abah yg selalu susah payah datang ambik angah bila angah call nak balik even 2 jam dari umah kew sini kalau abah tadew keje pown abah datang ambik. thx sebb susah payah bg duit belanja and lain2, even abah pon tengah susah, ta dapat angah balas. yang slalu usik angah dalam kete bile perjalanan nak balik. huhu. even angah ase nk maroh kew mende. p nanty bile angah keje mesty susah da nak macm nie. tiap kali abah mesty ckp jage diri angah.jage diri angah. thx abah. 

macam2 rasa bile tulis entry kali nie. 1st gelak2 sebb teringat mende lucu and mengalir air mate bile teringat jasa abah. i wanna apologize to all of u lecs and friends if i hurt u in unconscious way. i never mean to hurt all of u,am maybe little bit rough to all of u but i love u all so much. i just wat u know that i really appreciate all of u that came in mylife when am here. thx for made me laughed, cry and felt piss off. 

ma best friend NUNU .

SURI ma new friend, NUNU, MIRA aka BADAK  and YAYA  ma old housemate

Me in Farewell DINNER

AKLIMA the soft one , NUNU

with AYAHANDA LUKMAN ma mentor and abg long SYAFIQ adek beradek mentee merangkap classmate

QISTINA classmate

with EN WAN yg silly and Classmate.

i never forget all of u. !!!

x0x0..

Denggummmm Grammmarrrr teraburrrr. puihhh!!

Assalamualaikum sexiessssss..

ok fuhhhhh...
bismillahirahmanirrahimmmm..

hehe, actually i nak cakap something ngeee ngeee
if u guys bace beloq i ni, kalau lah ade yang bace (adelar kot haters2 or sayang2 sorang due kan?? kan?? kan?) i just na bagi tahu yang most of the tulisan and ayat banyak yg i spell it wrong or salah grammar sebab i just tulis sraight and kadang2 i tulis dalam otak and sambung kat beloq, always happen cam tu taooo. so i published. bila da ada kat beloq i went truw balek omaigoddd banyak nye laaa tatabahasa salah and spelling wrong.

huiiihh huiii huiii maluuuuu. so i hope orang yang bace ni jangan lah cakap i ni ape bunggoksss sangat dia nie mem beloq. hahaha if nak cakap pon well i bukan tahu pown kannn.. hahaha p just want u guys to know that i ta baca balik pon before publish so any mistake to diharap paham2 sendiri laaahh.

funnn sikitttt even hati susahhh sekarang ni...aru lah tak tension sangat kan???
lagipunnn assignment banyak nak kena submit ni so mem bz kan diri dengan perkara2 berfaedah tu  bagoss. apuihhhh (padahala alomost due date bru buat) ehemmm. so, that it ! hoping that u guys been well and yeahh happy always.

ouh btw this is muka pakai mozarina witthout any make up..

ta tahu gapo nokkk. hahaha

Xoxo sayanggg.

Dugaan Allah ni.

Assalamualaikum semuaaa....
todays is sabtuday.
hoping that u guys have a great weekend.

well, entry kali ni sangat lah bermakna bagi aku, tak pernah aku rasa nak menulis sesangat macam kali ni. to be honest my family is not in good condition. lagipun mang tak pernah good tapi not as bad as this one. rasa nak menangis sepanjang hari and rasa tak nak bangun nak tido je.

masalah yang still tak bleh nak diceritakan lagi buat masa ni. just i hope that my family can cope with this situation and can still live happily. once i find out it was from my dad. and i was shock . i dont lied. is like u almost lost everything and u still alive to face it. at that time abah still buat muka tenang. takde tanda2 dia serabut ke apa even i can see straight in his eyes that dia sangat runsing. dia just ckp "angah tayah pk pasal nie, biar abah yg pk.. angah just focus study and grad" i senyap jew. after that i balik bilik hempas badan kat katil and think. omaigod what just happen to us. i felt really down and yes am crying.

whole day i tak tahu nak buat apa. berita nie sangat menakutkan. i just hope that is not truth but..and mase tu i still in period so tak boleh sembahyang. so lagi laaa. sebab selalunya kalao i sedih i akan tros sembahyang and mengadu kat DIA. even i bukan alim or tahu semua pasal agama..sebagai hamba yang banya melakukan dosa tu jew cara yang i boleh. tp masa tu i tak boleh buat so lagi i stress out. i rase down . i just baring kat katil jew. sampai my bf call me asking about what happen sebab i dah macam tanak cakap. masa tu i tak reti nak cerita and tak ready nak story about it. so i decided to stay silent..

until few days i rasa tak tertanggung, bila dia tanya selalu so i cerita. i started to cry again. and he said he felt sorry for me. and he said that he will b on my side whatever happen. and im relief sebab i cerita gak kat someone yang i can trust. this is really private to me. to my family..i need to stay low before my dad can put his head high again. sekarang ni pun dia tengah berusaha keras to save it. so kena cool and relax baru lah keaddan tak tambah terok. and mami pown text me supaya always pray to Allah about it.

even so, i cant thinking about it. kalau lah i still in sem 2 or 3 i tak teragak agak drop out from college. p i dah nak habis. nak ke tanak i kena stay strong. i really hope that Allah can hear our prayers . and help us to get through this dugaan yang dia berikan. and espeacially to u yang banyak bagi support, i really terharu. thanks B for everythings.

hoping that abah tabah and berjaya balik macam dulu and more than that, angah always pray for u abah.
love abah sangat2.

Xoxo guys.

Mozarina Newskin

Assalamualaikum ladies and gentleman! yehaaa gtuuu, koboi ke? hahaha

today i nak story sikit pasal this one product that i been using now. they called it Mozarina NewSkin kan, maybe expensive sikit la for student ke apa kan but the product was good. rm180 for a trial set and rm230 for normal and am not sure about the big set maybe 380 ? am not sure but its aound that.

sor this a skin care ,dia ada pencuci , toner, renewing cream and whitening cream. my experience wearing it is like for the first a week and a half perh sangat pedih sebab peeling dekat muke then after my skink tone is become glowing and then scars start hilang and then kulit muka serata and the best thing is i dont have to wear a make up anymore, u know dulu i kena pakai cream or foundation and concealer and then baru bedak so banyak benda la. so only this set u dont have to use that kind of make up anymore. so i just use eyeliner supaya muka i tak pucat and liptink or lipstik. that all. so ta payah nak make up tebal wasting time and muka sekarang mang berbeza mangg cantik la .

i baru guna 3 weeks now tak sampai sebulan lagi so hasil for 3 weeks its good. am really excited about this product , kawan pon dah tegur muka nampak glowing nampak natural. its good feedback. i was happy. nanti i show u the result bila sebulan pakai k? now lexx luuuu. hahaha

u also can check it out at mozarina newskink at fb or instagram. ramai yang still tak tahu about this product but u can usha-usha dulu kan. mana tao u guys pon na try it out. hee. i give u the feedback nanti k. keep with me up,

xoxo.

sometime me not in the good condition !

assalamualaikum semua,
tak tahu kenapa hari ni semua rasa tak kena, pagi2 dah sakit perut sebab period pain sampai lah ke petang sampai aku skip kelas petang. bila dah letak minyak cap kapak barulah rase ok sikit, pas tuh, abah lak tak jadi ambik aku balik sebab nak gi KL malam ni. semua orang yang rumah dekat dah balik dari tadi lagi, aku je sorang2 dalam bilik ni. lepas tu pulak pasal praktikal, nak apply kat kuatan tapi risau menyusahkan shaher lak nanti, dia pon banyak kerja lain lagi tak kan la nak hantar na ambik aku pulak tiap2 hari, rasa sedih ni maybe sebab period and hormon ta stabil , u know lah girls kan when their have visitor every month they become someone else, dengan perasaan haru nya aku macam dah takde orang ambik tahu dah pasal diri ni.

habis nanti kalau lah apply dapat kat sana nak stay rumah sapa? mokde ngan pokde ke? takkan nak kacau diorang kan bau kawin. opah memang tak lah sebab dah ramai orang! umah ayah long? hurm tak tahu lah tu. susah nya!! kalau kat kl nanti tempat praktikal dekat tak dengan rumah along? kena naik monorel banyak kali ke? arghhh, and kalau kat kb nie nak cari rumah sewa dekat nak dudok dengan sapa lak?  pening la kepala macam ni,

nak buat lesen keta aku tahu bawa keta auto je, dah nak bagi lulus sapa nak ajar naik manual kalau kereta rumah aku tu manual takpe lah jugak nie semua auto!!!! dah sapa suruh ta reti kan? nie semua kena susah kan orang je.

hujung minggu yang membosankan . menyedihkan . menyakitkan .

hoping that there some ways to solve this.

Am a troblesome .

Hye guys, assalamualaikum

its actually almost 3. and i still wake up. its been a hard week for me. maybe Allah is testing me in this Ramadhan. oh ya! almost forget! Happy Ramadhan i hope that u can gain more and more in this honorably month. 

so, is not that i wanna tell anything. its just things that i cannot say to ma friends. i donno what to do or who to talk with. for the past few days am so sick. i got flu and i also cant breath. i even through out. its was a difficult time and it was a fasting day for me. but i think Allah still love me even i have a lot of sin. so after that day HE give me a break from a fasting. u know women !! Hee. thank to ma friend that be with me. 

and that weeks ma dad also have some financial problem. i think until this day. i hope that Allah help me. so i dont wanna bother ma dad so much about money. sometime i feel sad about why i dont just born in rich family that dont have this kind of issue. but then i realize this is not something that we can argue. we should pray to Allah. i hope ma dad be strong, he must be worried more than i do.

today also is ma lil bro birthday. so Happy Birthday MOMOK!!!! u turn 15. i hope that u manage well and is really hard time for teenager. ive been there. o hope that u take care of urself well. i heard lots of bad things about u. please dont make mama sad. she's far away. u should know. i love u a lot. i never say it to ur face but i really do. so i hope that u can go through this stage of life. 

i just finish a task actually. now i need to continue to do another one. ma laptop is dumb. need money! i just donno how i can face a life anymore. its hard. i almost finish ma study. next sem is gonna be a practical time. i still dont know where to apply. right now i think i spend so much time alone. just stay in ma room and think about what should i do. i hope Allah is with me. i try to be strong of what happen. 

its new sem started, money again ! am sorry dad am such a bad bad daughter. and am sorry B, i know i give u a hard time. i know that u worried about me. its actually funny that u text ma friend to take care of me when i sick. and thank to u. i cant never pay anything that u give me, its just i got a lot of to think about then i treat u like that. i need someone to blame. and the easy way its blame it on u. i know that u the one who understand me even i can say this problem to u. when i surround by all the people ma heart feel empty. 

BE STRONG April !

may Allah bless u all.
Xoxo April Reika

New GirL .

Assalamualaikum my sayang semua,

Dah lama i ta write on this blog kan? So, dah ada kesempatan ni i nak share something to u guys. as far as u know me i just a senior in collage. average pointer, not so popular and just a regular human being in this world. i sometime think that i am more than that but we all know that we dont usually get what we want is it? Hee. even when we think about it we always dont wanna assume that we just normal. we dont wanna lose hope so we think that we such a difference with other people. me think so too. but is not negatively wrong for us to think that kind of way. be normal is not totally wrong. now a days people want to be different than the other person. maybe this is influence from the movies we saw or a novel or anything that u might experience. 

The reason why i tell u about this kind of thing is because deep down in my heart i wanna be normal but me being normal is not the option. what the most important thing in life is that u know what u want. what exactly u looking for in life. what u wanna pursuit ? what u will be? and what is your plan to do it? this question is always singing and dancing in my mind. always keep me anxious about what will happen in the future. sometime i keep it without the answer. but sooner or later u need to figure it out about it right?  so start it now u need to gain everything to make what u want come true. start from being in normal student in collage and normal people in the world u living now. see through what u have waste in previous. me wasting so much time. and time is not something if we pay million dollar we can have it back. so instead of feeling regret about what u do in the past why not u try fix it in any possible way in your present life and for the future. 

I dont have a luxury and rich family background, but is not the issue that u cant achieve anything. i feel sorry for my dad that work days and nights just to make sure that me and my family can stay together and have a wonderful life. of course that sometime we fight and argue about certain things but even we manage or not we never be anyone else, we family!. so even sometime i hate my dad bacause he always try toordering me around but if i have to pay it with life i willing to give it just to make sure that my dad is here with my family. as far as i more mature than i use to be. from now on i dont wanna fight with him. what i try to do is make him understand and hope that he can accept it. sometime we need to say no to our people who care not because we dont love them but we need to decide what is the best for our life. i hope he could understand about what am i going through.

So move on to what i was telling u now, is not about be like your idol or be popular that can make u happy but know how to live your life is the most important thing, i use to imagine that my parent is not divorce but is written in their life that mine is not like yours. so u need to think in positive way. i struggle so much to what i became now, i not regret what have i done in the past. i try to take it to make my future more better than i can be. so what u gonna do to your life is not everyone can control, it is your choice. sometime your choice is not so good but just consider that u still not matured enough to deal with this life. i think what is the best part of life is we never stop learning new things from everyone around us. even an older people learn from a younger so please try to consider what u can get by be YOU! 

Am 22 years old girl who use to be anyone, who use to copy anything that i feel like it and use to be heartbroken just because of love. but now on i just wanna be me who maybe dont have the highest grade on the paper, who not so beautiful that other, who always cry when she is stress out, who always say what she wanna say, who sometime get messy and who sleep all day if she can. even though she is just a normal girl, right now i really wanna be that regular girl. i want that regular girl will be SOMETHING one day. 

For u who still looking for what u wanna do in your life or what u wanna be, i hope that u find it and say to yourself that u really proud of what u did before. 

i anxiously waiting for one day i can say that to myself.

Love April Reika

XOXO 

Hari Anugerah Dekan !!!

Assalamualaikum uolllsssss.... ^_^

Di malam yang indah ini saya akan..wahhh, wahh wahhh..Hahaha. gelak sampai kuar kentut!!!
no seriously, ok tonite ive been through a tiring day for me. Ngeh3 i had class for the most long hours, n then out to city to get some snack , i just bought MAGGY and some BREAD n dont forget 3 PEARS . (its a fruit btw fyi Haha.), ouh gosh stop with mumbling.

Alrite than, sunday on 17 march i pergi anugerah dekan (KPTMKB) dekat Renaissance Hotel, so fyi its a 1st time kptmkb  buat kat grand place cam hotel, slalu nye i tatao la i ta sampai dekan,. HAHAHAHA. but seriously i am thxfull to Allah that he hear ma pray, and finally i got in dean's list . So, i went there with ma parent Abah n Mummy and dont forget ma lil bro Adam, Hee. ramai lah kat situ brings their parent. well actually the parent is paid for the sit in the hall. Haha. certain i tengok waoo cam hari raya n wedding day, seriously there wearing so glamored outfit. no wonder girls spend so much on themself!, with their hair, n who wearing a hijab with their hijab , shawls n dont forget a HALF MOON . Haha . i? i da cakap mang na pakai biase2 jew, takot Very The Over lha kan!! Haha, but still look formal n nice ok. Heeh, prasan . 

Well, i cam surprise bile i hear they have u know the best student who got cgpa 4.00, u know what is that mean? He only got A for everything start from 1st sem. woowww~~~ i am speechless. DIA SANGAT HEBAT. n futhermore mang ramai lagi yang lebih hebat dari saya, so mang i ta over sangat la, Hee. but they are very beautiful  that evening for sure, cuma ade yang certain dressed up to much. but ape ape pown, even hari to ended with jayanya... hoh! sorry for my bahasa ROJAK, sory sory mory mory, i terase mao menulis begitu pada malam ini kerana i just woke up and i had migraine earlier . but now im cool. i felt ohsem!! Haha.
porgivee meee

so now, am going to finish ma sleep. haha. ouh ma test 1 is horrible guys. really need a hard work rite now. pray for me guys. n p/s p/s, now i da bercakap with ma friend tuu, really glad that we overcome our problems, i need to realize and fix some of ma problems and she is too. so thx Allah ! ^_^

so of course, like a dayssss.. here some SNAPS foryaa,

saya dapat ini ^_^

 

 

Hoho,

So, nie jew yang boleh d show to u guys, sume pics in ma phone so i still not use ma usb so u know for urself k ! malas, Haha, naty after i da use ma USB then i show u more rite guys, so i leave here for now, meet again next entry sygss. dont forget that i love u, XOXO may our life will e bless by Allah .

Adios Amigos.

Long Time No See ^_^

Assalamualaikum sume,
Perh lame nye ta update beloq nie.. Huhu. Bukan tamo update p cam malas and kind of dont know what to share. so malam nie rase macam na update cerita2 yang da lame ..
Hee .
so, this week i cuti seminggu after test 1, best la da lame ta cuti kan. tadew la buat ape2 sangat. just jumpe family yang da lame ta jumpe. gathering n have fun together, best la sebab dowunk sporting giler. Hehe. family belah Mama yang kat kuantan. so kte2 pergi Gambang waterpark have fun kat sane and i alek uma opah kejap.

makngah plak mang suke bercakap, abes sume mende dye na cerita mang best la, even da lame sangat ta jumpe. so shaher pown ta awkward la with my family. i will put on the picture after this, so wait for a while ok.. Haha,

ok then, after gambang holidays semua tu, i alek ruma lah, then on ma way back to Kota Bharu, i got a text mssge, from ma boyfie. he just weirdo.. try to pick a fight when im gone. then we fought maybe like a day. so, after that we kind of cool. hard for  me to say thing is like a rain, sometime it just raining even sky is bright. we neva know how life will be.. right?

ok, stop about those things. the most hard time when ma friends stop talking to me? maybe me is not that her friends type of wateva but stop talking to me?? are u serious? i sont know maybe i did someting bad to her or she just dont like me. but i pray for her n i dont wanna make thing gone worst. so i hope that u realize that i always wanna be ur friends even till now u wont spoke to me like before.

and ma mum. she's moving out, i dont know what to expect. she say nothing to us and now ..its broke ma heart for sure.

so, u know we neva expect life as we want. sometime it could be worst than we thought and sometime it will make u happy, bout i hope we all being bless by Allah.

earlier, i just came back from mosque, there happen to be a tilawah al-quran competition for ma area, after all the qari and qariah recite their quran. we have been serve by a group of young boys from sekolah agama, am not sure which school but their voices so deep in ma heart until now, its so wonderful and so beautiful.. i just dont know how to describe it. huhu.. u should hear them really.!

so what i wanna try to say with ma entry this time is, u really should take ur life for granted. u know no matter how bad ur life is, try to change them. trust me, sometime i think ma life is really bad and i just wanna live that way coz i thought that is no way out and i think Allah wont give me other opportunity to surrender, but the truth is, He always give us a second change, no matter ho many second change u ask before we die or before the world is over, u know its is the end of the world. i just wanna be a good girl and obey His ordered, sometime i fail, we just a human being we always do some mistake,so in order to be on his way, u need to follow his rule. i try ma best maybe i still weak on somewhere but i hope He hear me..

so i hope u guys to, try to change ur life, if u can stop what u think is bad than u will be strong enough to start what u should do as a muslim. i hope ma journey will ohsem, am sure it will. im hoping for urs too.

best of luck with wateva u do, i love u guys..xoxo

p/s: im playing guitar with ohsemness!!! Haha .

nie, just married couple kat kanan, pokde n mokde n in the middle makngah and ma kazens. ank2 dia letew.. Hehe

nie? Hee, added ma boyfie jew together, <3

of course la ma cousin . atikah bawu form 1

paris saint german. Hee. koya sweet lenie.. 

i pray that one day u will be halal n officially mine. ^_^ pray for us guys,