Assalamualaikum semuaaa....
todays is sabtuday.
hoping that u guys have a great weekend.
well, entry kali ni sangat lah bermakna bagi aku, tak pernah aku rasa nak menulis sesangat macam kali ni. to be honest my family is not in good condition. lagipun mang tak pernah good tapi not as bad as this one. rasa nak menangis sepanjang hari and rasa tak nak bangun nak tido je.
masalah yang still tak bleh nak diceritakan lagi buat masa ni. just i hope that my family can cope with this situation and can still live happily. once i find out it was from my dad. and i was shock . i dont lied. is like u almost lost everything and u still alive to face it. at that time abah still buat muka tenang. takde tanda2 dia serabut ke apa even i can see straight in his eyes that dia sangat runsing. dia just ckp "angah tayah pk pasal nie, biar abah yg pk.. angah just focus study and grad" i senyap jew. after that i balik bilik hempas badan kat katil and think. omaigod what just happen to us. i felt really down and yes am crying.
whole day i tak tahu nak buat apa. berita nie sangat menakutkan. i just hope that is not truth but..and mase tu i still in period so tak boleh sembahyang. so lagi laaa. sebab selalunya kalao i sedih i akan tros sembahyang and mengadu kat DIA. even i bukan alim or tahu semua pasal agama..sebagai hamba yang banya melakukan dosa tu jew cara yang i boleh. tp masa tu i tak boleh buat so lagi i stress out. i rase down . i just baring kat katil jew. sampai my bf call me asking about what happen sebab i dah macam tanak cakap. masa tu i tak reti nak cerita and tak ready nak story about it. so i decided to stay silent..
until few days i rasa tak tertanggung, bila dia tanya selalu so i cerita. i started to cry again. and he said he felt sorry for me. and he said that he will b on my side whatever happen. and im relief sebab i cerita gak kat someone yang i can trust. this is really private to me. to my family..i need to stay low before my dad can put his head high again. sekarang ni pun dia tengah berusaha keras to save it. so kena cool and relax baru lah keaddan tak tambah terok. and mami pown text me supaya always pray to Allah about it.
even so, i cant thinking about it. kalau lah i still in sem 2 or 3 i tak teragak agak drop out from college. p i dah nak habis. nak ke tanak i kena stay strong. i really hope that Allah can hear our prayers . and help us to get through this dugaan yang dia berikan. and espeacially to u yang banyak bagi support, i really terharu. thanks B for everythings.
hoping that abah tabah and berjaya balik macam dulu and more than that, angah always pray for u abah.
love abah sangat2.
Xoxo guys.
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