Assalamualaikum my sayang semua,
Dah lama i ta write on this blog kan? So, dah ada kesempatan ni i nak share something to u guys. as far as u know me i just a senior in collage. average pointer, not so popular and just a regular human being in this world. i sometime think that i am more than that but we all know that we dont usually get what we want is it? Hee. even when we think about it we always dont wanna assume that we just normal. we dont wanna lose hope so we think that we such a difference with other people. me think so too. but is not negatively wrong for us to think that kind of way. be normal is not totally wrong. now a days people want to be different than the other person. maybe this is influence from the movies we saw or a novel or anything that u might experience.
The reason why i tell u about this kind of thing is because deep down in my heart i wanna be normal but me being normal is not the option. what the most important thing in life is that u know what u want. what exactly u looking for in life. what u wanna pursuit ? what u will be? and what is your plan to do it? this question is always singing and dancing in my mind. always keep me anxious about what will happen in the future. sometime i keep it without the answer. but sooner or later u need to figure it out about it right? so start it now u need to gain everything to make what u want come true. start from being in normal student in collage and normal people in the world u living now. see through what u have waste in previous. me wasting so much time. and time is not something if we pay million dollar we can have it back. so instead of feeling regret about what u do in the past why not u try fix it in any possible way in your present life and for the future.
I dont have a luxury and rich family background, but is not the issue that u cant achieve anything. i feel sorry for my dad that work days and nights just to make sure that me and my family can stay together and have a wonderful life. of course that sometime we fight and argue about certain things but even we manage or not we never be anyone else, we family!. so even sometime i hate my dad bacause he always try toordering me around but if i have to pay it with life i willing to give it just to make sure that my dad is here with my family. as far as i more mature than i use to be. from now on i dont wanna fight with him. what i try to do is make him understand and hope that he can accept it. sometime we need to say no to our people who care not because we dont love them but we need to decide what is the best for our life. i hope he could understand about what am i going through.
So move on to what i was telling u now, is not about be like your idol or be popular that can make u happy but know how to live your life is the most important thing, i use to imagine that my parent is not divorce but is written in their life that mine is not like yours. so u need to think in positive way. i struggle so much to what i became now, i not regret what have i done in the past. i try to take it to make my future more better than i can be. so what u gonna do to your life is not everyone can control, it is your choice. sometime your choice is not so good but just consider that u still not matured enough to deal with this life. i think what is the best part of life is we never stop learning new things from everyone around us. even an older people learn from a younger so please try to consider what u can get by be YOU!
Am 22 years old girl who use to be anyone, who use to copy anything that i feel like it and use to be heartbroken just because of love. but now on i just wanna be me who maybe dont have the highest grade on the paper, who not so beautiful that other, who always cry when she is stress out, who always say what she wanna say, who sometime get messy and who sleep all day if she can. even though she is just a normal girl, right now i really wanna be that regular girl. i want that regular girl will be SOMETHING one day.
For u who still looking for what u wanna do in your life or what u wanna be, i hope that u find it and say to yourself that u really proud of what u did before.
i anxiously waiting for one day i can say that to myself.
Love April Reika
XOXO
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